Between having some time to kill and geeking out about seeing Jonathon Young tomorrow, I thought I’d talk a little about why Mr. Young is so important to me.
I’ve been writing for about ten years now. I started with fanficiton when I was 12 and just haven’t stopped. Honestly, I think my brain is pretty much wired for this sort of thing. I generally take a pen and paper with me when I’m going places I think I’ll need something to do and have never had a problem staring off into space and creating elaborate worlds. Hell, I was the kid who spent days in MGM of Disney World sitting on a bench and writing. Seriously, I would just write in Disney World.
When I got to high school, I got a lot of comments from people about how I should become a writer, because that’s what I did, all of the time. Honestly, though, it was something I never seriously considered. I made up a lot of reasons - it doesn’t pay well, what if I never get published, what kind of degree do you get, what would you do with that degree, can you even “learn” to write, it’s not a stable career, what if I become jaded towards writing, etc - but in reality, I think I was just scared. Hell, I’m still scared.
I got into my head that I should become a doctor. I’m smart, I love science, I’m good with people - sure, doctor. And the idea itself was met with such great reception that it was very hard to ever admit that I was changing my mind. So, despite the fact that I was slightly uneasy about going into pre-med, I did it anyway. I literally only had pre-med friends and focused a ton on science, but my heart was never in it. My pre-med friends, they’re all going to make great doctors some day, they really are, but I knew that it wasn’t for me because I was nothing like them. I didn’t have the drive or the interest. But it took until I came out as trans to really realize that.
At the very end of my fall semester sophomore year (about 6 months after I came out), I was doing a lot of thinking. Finally I could see a future for myself, but being a doctor and medical school was just not in it at all. It took a long time, but I was able to drop that. Then I spent almost a year really uncertain of where I was going. I mean, I said that I was just going to finish off my pysch degree and then grad school and whatever, but my heart wasn’t in that either. I really was just clueless.
Then one day I was re-watching the Sanctuary episode of ‘Animus’ instead of doing homework and I had an epiphany moment: Jonathon Young is fucking gorgeous. THe obsession began there and spread into learning more about his life. Cue finding out that he not only acts, but also writes plays.
I mean, I was in a creative writing class and loving it. It was really letting me rediscover writing, but there was something about finding out that Jonathon Young was a very successful and wonderful writer/actor that made me really think “I could do this”. He inspired me to take another writing class and to take a Contemporary Drama class and this class has really changed my views on things and ways of thinking. I’m really getting into theatre and also have been working so much harder on my novel, mostly due to Jonathon Young’s play “The Flannigan Affair”.
I’m now really trying to embrace the idea of becoming a writer and looking into grad school. I’m still playing around with which style to get into, playwriting or fiction, but I’ll definitely be taking classes in both regardless.
But yeah, part of the reason I wanted to share this is because I have every intention of trying to catch Jonathon Young at the stage door and get his autograph. Which means that I’ll get to meet the man who has inspired me to stop being so afraid and really do what I want to do. Part of me really wants to say something along those lines to him, or even just ask him a question about being a writer. But I’m also completely terrified to (hello social anxiety mixed with freaking out because I’m meeting my idol anxiety).
We’ll see. Either way, I’m super excited about this trip. Plus I’ll be checking out two potential grad schools while I’m there!