Lost and Found

xxboy:

Today I was talking to some strangers about Friday Night Lights. And I said, “Listen, I didn’t play football in high school - wasn’t involved, but I love that show.”

I transitioned when I was 21. I lived as a girl in high school. Playing football was not an option for me.

But I said that as though it was a decision I made, and that’s what I believed. As I said that, I forgot that I was not Sebastian in high school, that I couldn’t have played on the football team if I wanted to. 

As I move forward in my life as Sebastian, my past becomes Sebastian’s past, too. And my memories have me (as Sebastian) in them. It’s pretty great really.

It’s really amazing how true this is. I’ve been noticing this happening to me the longer I’ve been transitioning.

I feel like for me most of these memories start out as conscious editing and eventually just become “truth”.