I’ve been spending some time thinking about revision surgery. After about 7 months post-op, I’m pretty happy with my results. The scars have healed REALLY well. Overall the shape and everything looks good. I do have some extra skin that hasn’t tightened up and, considering that my skin isn’t the greatest, I’m not really expecting it to. After my 6 month consultation with my surgeon, he said that the sides of my chest (closest to my armpits) still look concave because he took out a little too much fat and so he can do a procedure to move things around a little and flatten everything out and he can fix the skin problems.
I wasn’t feel that bad about the small problems for a while. Really I’m just happy to be able to not bind and feel pretty comfortable in private. But I’ve started to notice that I am self-conscious about taking my shirt off and that makes me kind of sad because that’s part of why I paid for surgery, was to have that luxury or at least option. It’s something that maybe doesn’t cause me a lot of stress or concern now, but I don’t want it to constantly hang around.
The big thing about this, why I’m really thinking about it now, is because if I don’t do the surgery by this summer and decide I want to do it later, I’ll have to pay the full price. For now, the surgeon will waive his fee. That means I’m just paying the surgery center and anesthesia (plus about $500 for the nipple reduction he offered to do, which I also want done.) But that totals to $3,000 because the surgery center is pricey.
I feel like my only real hesitation is that I’ve already paid $5,300 for this surgery, now I’m considering $3,000 more. I’m trying to organize grad school and housing for that (and how much money I need / how complicated it’ll be depends on where I’m going) and I keep randomly realizing how far in debt I am because of college. But then I figure, what the fuck, this is important to me and I can earn most of that working over the summer…
I applied to CareCredit. It’s a medical credit card which my surgeon accepts and which I tried to get earlier, but was denied because I had no credit. On a whim, I applied and was surprised that I was actually approved for more than I need. So I can pay for it and pay it back over a year, so I could earn most of the money over the summer but not worry about how much I might need for housing or grad school, etc.
At the moment, I’m pretty certain that I’ll end up doing this. I feel like I’m just nervous and uncertain. Especially because I haven’t addressed this possibility with my parents, but I think since everything went well the first time they’d be comfortable with it.
I’ve talked myself into calling tomorrow, anyway, and making an appointment to talk about it for during my spring break. I can at least get a clearer idea of what the surgery would entail, what he’ll do, etc and how to get started. And I can ask some questions to clarify some of my concerns with the CareCredit and how payments will work.